Creative Writing

Sitting in the waiting room, tapping my foot onto the cold floor. I’ve been coming here everyday for the last three months and I’m slowly becoming numb to the heartache. The nurse walked out and tells me I can come in, giving me the same sad smile as always. I go to my normal chair right next to the hospital bed. I reach down and take a hold of Jahseh’s hand , it’s still warm which makes me hopeful. I turn on a playlist of all the songs we listened to that weekend. The weekend three months ago. That weekend was amazing. I try and remember that he was happy, it’s better than remembering the accident, the blood, the tears, the sadness.

That friday I heard a knock on my window, I was used to Jahs random midnight visits so I wasn’t scared
to let him in. He went straight to my bed, his eyes looked normal which was a surprise, I swear that boys
never sober. I got into bed and laid down for a while til I heard Jah whisper “Wanna run away?” I thought
for a while but decided I did, “Actually yeah”. Jah looked shocked but happy. I got up and started packing
remembering to grab the $200 I had still had left from my birthday. I opened the window “you coming?”
I asked which made him stand up and follow me out the window. We got into Jah’s car and drove for a
while until the question of where we were gonna stay came up. “My uncle has a cabin in the woods,
he’s out of the country at the moment and I know where the spare key is” I replied “Let’s go” Jah said as
he smiled. After a couple hours of driving we arrived and got straight into bed.

I woke up to Jahseh playing with my hair, making me smile “what do you wanna do today?” Jah asked,
“we could go for a walk, I know this lake like ten minutes away” I replied, Jah just smiled and nodded.
An hour or so went by and we were both ready, Jah opened the door for me and we started walking.
About 15 minutes into the walk we saw the lake, Jah grabbed my hand and started running.
Once we were on the rocky shore Jah stripped to his boxers and ran in. I slowly followed behind.
We stayed in the water all day. I only got out when I saw the sun was setting but Jah was still playing like
a kid in at the playground. It was good to see him having fun and smiling for once. It started getting dark
and we decided it would be a good time to head back.

Once we were back we decided to get in the spa. ”Jah, why’d you even want to run away in the first
place” I said, “my life’s turned to ruins, I don’t think I can survive in that house anymore” he sighed.
As the conversation continued I learnt so much about him.  He told me that from a young age he was
introduced to domestic abuse, suicide and so much else. You can tell everything takes a toll on him,
it made me realise how strong he was. I was becoming more interested with the person he really was
and it made me have a deeper appreciation for him. After talking for countless hours I noticed Jah was
getting tired so I decided we should go to bed. “Night, I love you” Jah mumbled making me blush
“I love you too Jah” I smiled.

I opened my eyes and rolled over to check the time, it was 9:23 am. I turned around to wake Jah up but
he wasn't there, I didn't think much of it and went back to sleep. I felt a tap on my shoulder and opened
my eyes seeing Jah there, his eyes were red but I tried to just trust that he was tired. “We should probably
go buy food today” Jah suggested, “probably” I laughed as I got up and started getting ready. Once I was
dressed I told Jah we should go and we raced to his car. We started driving to the closest supermarket,
even though it was an hour away. The first half of the trip was fun, we were singing and looking around
at the views of the empty roads, but about half way through Jah starting swerving a little bit and stopped
singing along to the music. “You alright?” I asked, “yeah” he replied. I don’t know why I trusted him,
I shouldn't have. The roads started getting busier and I saw it as I sign we were close, but it really just
made it more dangerous. That’s when It happened, the last thing I saw was the front of Jah’s car
smashing into a big truck then we flipped.

The next thing I remember was waking up in the hospital. I was only out for a day, no broken bones
somehow, just some cuts here and there. As soon as I woke up I asked where Jah was, they told me
he was in the special care unit, he wasn't waking up, they put him into a medically induced coma. I got
released the same day I woke up. Once the hospital told me he was aloud visitors I went and sat with
him everyday. Including today, holding his somehow still warm hand, just thinking about what I could
have done different. I got drifted out of my thoughts when I felt Jahs hand start squeezing mine, looking
at him in shock, his eyes started opening. I pressed the button that let the doctors know they had to
come in. He was awake, talking, eating, and that’s when I discovered that being strong was not a
physical thing it was how much you can handle and Jah made me just as strong as him.